I tried to find the most non gag-inducing image of a spider I could because spiders are among one of my top fears. Living in the woods in Pennsylvania was my ultimate nightmare when it came to bugs. I don’t think 2 days went by where I wouldn’t scream out loud at seeing a humongous spider or furry looking centipede. There were two spiders that have permanently traumatized: one me had rainbow colored legs, and the other one was the size of a small hamster and Brian had to beat it with a tennis racket repeatedly. Now I feel like they are crawling all over me.
Another fear of mine is throwing up, especially throwing up in public during a panic attack (which sounds like the perfect symbolization of loss of control).
Finally, I am terrified of being sexually assaulted. It’s unfortunate that most women feel this way, but if I’m out by myself, I always have an eye out for strange, lingering men even in broad daylight. It’s totally nuts and I would never do this, but sometimes I wish it was normal to walk around with a giant uhaul box on so people couldn’t look at my body…specifically by men who undress you with their eyes. They make me want to crawl under a rock and puke…but not in public, of course.